My Bucket List Part II

I left a few things off My Bucket List now….

31. I want to win an NAACP Image Award for my shows.

32. I want to win a GLAAD award for my shows and the work I will do in the LGBT Community.

33. I wan to start a scholarship for LGBT youth that want to get into the arts (television, film, etc). I just want to help struggling artists like myself now.

34. I want to be on panel discussions and run workshops about the film industry and “making it” today!

35. I want to die happy. I want to die knowing that I completed my Bucket List.

36. I want to live to 100 years old and have this HUGE party for myself! Like the party of the century!! And if I have kids… I want to make their old butts wheel my crazy even older ass around to  say “hi’ to all my old friends! I want to get drunk on my 100th birthday! LOL! I want to keep the party alive for a century for real!

37. I want to be a positive successful image of black lesbians in the media. I want to be out and dating hot women in the media! And show other black lesbians coming up that you can be cute, feminine, and be out in the entertainment industry!

38. I want to be remembered and missed. (yeah, this is something I personally can not actually physically do… but that’s something I want!)

39. I want to be known for touching lives with my shows and films… I want to make people happy and escape from their problems for just an hour or two.

40. I want to have my six pack abs again in my life!!! YEAP!

41. I want to create positive images of  the Black LGBT community in the media.

42. I want to write and produce a film about my grandmother’s life story (it’s a good one! Oscar all over it!)

43. I want to be the next “me”… I don’t want to be like anyone else. I want to be succesful in my own right!

44. I want to have my own production company that produces my own projects and takes on other interesting projects (depending on the scripts)! I want to have the power to select what we will produce and pass on now.

45. I want my own motherfucking BIG office and to make my own money and hours.

46. I want to pitch my ideas to investors and partner with major production companies and studios and have them invest in my ideas. I want to actively make my ideas come to life on screen.

47. I want to be a major “player” in the production industry. I want to be “known” in the industry. I want folks to be like “Go to Jessica… She always has great ideas that are successful!” I want to have the golden touch. I feel I have “the golden touch now” because I can feel what is going to be hot or not… But, I don’t have anyone to listen to me yet!

48. I want to get revenge on all my Haters that didn’t think I would be anything, that didn’t support me, that hated on me for years….. I want to show them that I am something in this life. I want to show them that I made it! I want Ms Illegal to regret the day that she ever left me.

49. I want people to listen to me. I want to be able to get any woman I want without question. I want to have power, success, women, and prestige. I want to be able to have a “voice.” I do not have a “voice” now.

And finally #50…. I want to be successful at my job. I want to do what I love for the rest of my life and make a difference through my work. I want to be make  big money in production and I just want to be happy with my job, my success, and feel complete in my life!